the great amalgam

the whole point

I am the great amalgamation of everyone I have ever known

If I've known you, you've been stolen from, not maliciously of course, actually with great love and respect. I steal your tone and style and taste, not as a sick twisted parody, but with great reverence. Even the idea of doing this has been stolen but not to try to make a perverse copy. Whenever I glue all the concepts and projects of my friends together with the few interests that are really mine, I hope I can make something original and real. Everything I like is everything I am, if I know you, I surely like you, so you without even knowing get to take part in the great amalgam.

I love Homestuck, Blow Me

cringe culture is dead (mostly)

ok so yeah cringe culture is dead but also this is still really embarrassing. like this is a thing i really like but i'm also really self-aware of the connotation of this media.

disclaimers aside, I love Homestuck, blow me. I am still realizing the extent to which that shit messed with my development. I started reading it in 8th grade cause this dude I had a crush on told me to (he's super weirdly conservative now, but yes he cosplayed Gamzee). This was my Hamilton, like my other freaky friends were having dan and phil 21 pilots esque eras but I was in the hard stuff. I fell ass first into the homestuck-->discord-->internet friends pipeline. I didn't read the whole thing until 9th grade but then it got me. I reread it almost immediately and got so invested i was literally reading it on my laptop at a waterpark.

but let's talk about the actual comic now. i wouldn't necesarilly recommend it cause it takes like a month minimum to go through the whole thing and the fandom for it is mostly dead. but it's this insane kindof coming of age comic/media of kids and aliens saving (making) their universe and it's really confusing and there's a lot of twists and turns and timelines and loops and time bullshit. but it's awesome i swear. it also has some of the funniest lines/media/interactions ever that have influenced me to this day. Any interaction between Dave, Terezi, and Jade (my favs) can be framed basically, here's some i've prepared for you, in frames.

terezi was my fav when i read it the first time and i do still stand by this as she is (imo) one of the less morally dubious characters (vriska apologists dni). she's also one of my kins but i mean it mostly ironically but also kinda not, whenever i get in a particular silly mood i find myself being giggly and neurotic and obsessed with justice as well. i just think she's really funny and her lore and theming is super cool (the dragons??? ((dragon deez nuts))) i love the arc of her doing her just1c3 thing and even though it was kind of a copout on Hussies end to clean up all the plot bullshit, i like how her mind abilities were used as a plot device. (I DO HATE HOW VRISKA WAS THE FOCAL CHARACTER FOR IT THOUGH) but that's a story for another day

if you for some reason read this and want to talk about homestuck ever i am so down SORRY THIS WAS SO EMBARRASSING SORRY IDGAF BYE

Minesweeper makes me normal

I'm always looking for patterns in everything all of the time I feel like a computer because of it. This is why I like minesweeper so much though cause that is the whole point. I'm like the apex predator of minesweeper cause i'm so honed in on pattern recognition. I play in my head when i'm bored i play in my dreams. every day i get closer to breaking world records (not like i give that much of a fuck but if i kept going i probably could do it accidentally).

i've weened off it a little but I was genuinely addicted to it after I figured out how the patterns worked. my college had yung gravy come perform but i didn't go cause i was too busy playing minesweeper for 8 hours. i had an average of 50 hours a week playing for like 2 months straight.

idc if you dc but here's some of my favorite patterns

-i loooove the 2 and 1 combo it is so adorable how they go together. cause of the rules of the one of those 4 blocks in range the one by the 2 must have a bomb and the 1 cant. i think it's so adorable cause any number can do it if you can logically tell that its technically a 2 like if a three has one on another side. it's a super important strat for higher bomb play

-the 5 on a corner is super cute too cause even though it's not really a pattern and more that is what it is, it's super helpful cause of how obvious it is

-i also love when there's 2 ones together by the border cause you can go by the overlap

also complete sidenote but the speedrun meta for minesweeper is insane. like normally people don't even mark bombs cause it takes time to do so these people know the patterns so well they can just see it. i can kind of do it but it's hard to do fast. with more training ill get there though for sure. also people will cheat and hack their first tap to make it better so there has to be rules to use a standardized source. idk! i just think it's really cool that a game that's objectively really simple still has a meta.

i just love playing this game cause i'm good at it and i want people to know im good at things ( even if theyre dumb )